I feel very happy today because this time next week I will be on a plane en route to my favourite part of Greece, for a week of thoughts and grief...
My unwanted divorce should be absolute during that week, and it will be my X-husband's birthday too, and I am planning a solitary week of revisiting our old holiday places, our last happy times together were spent there.
Why am I in the happy room? well, because I know that after I've made this trip, I will be able to reach some sort of calm resolution to all the angst that has been going on for the past 2 years (or 15 years, depending on how I look at it). I will make my peace with nature, the sea, and my favourite mountain.
I will be able to draw a wobbly line under a 30 year relationship...
I will be ready to move on.....
Happy me.
x Jan x
Oh bugger, why am I crying?